Blur

Well, i'm so lost this recently...

Feel like my life or my world become more n more complicated!

Sometime,

just wanna dump everything and run away...

But could i do so?

NO WAY!!!

I love my family

How do i can do so?

N now i had attached to someone that really love me

& i love him too of caus...

Actually i dont have much demand

A simple one...

Very simple one....................... Hmmm

I want a peaceful life

Sweet and peace!

I want my family stay happy all the time

I want me & my B relationship could be stable a bit

Since when i also dont know,

I start to worry ....

Worry about this, worry about that,

my mind didnt really get a chance to relax...

Worry about life, work, relatiohship...

But for me,

i knew which was the main one will easily affected my mind & soul

That is something out of human's control.

I'm tough when come to problems or challenges,

i dare to fight back whenever i'm right.

But when come to this problem,

I always will be a loser.

In this game,

always end up...

i get hurt i get pain and i get nothing besides weaken my body.

Luckily,

i still able to stand up back and look forward for future.

Becaus i knew,

only me, myself who are holding my life on.

We cant choose where we being born, the family background

and even our everything...

But we still can choose the pathway that we wanna to live,

we still can create the lifestyle that we want that we demand.

I want a happy, peaceful, sweet and healthy lifestyle.

I want a colourful life that bring joy and also cheer people around me.

I want a life that i would not regret if come to dead.

Thus,

I'll try my best to really live in this world.

Life is short but yet i'll make it meaningful!

(:

I'm blur due to the subborness of myself to look at the problems.

Becaus i hold my both hand tight with the problems....

N that's why i'm suffer.

I feel stress, i feel my heart tight and barely to breath.

So, i need to learn how to open up my fingers and let go the things...

Sometime, only let go we'll get back the freedom or the space that we want.

I always mention it as - the comfort zone!

Haha

Step behind a step, you'll see the different.

You'll realize and found out that it wasnt really that bad.

Live your life with yourself , the true of you.

Unleash your potential and make it come true.

I love my life

I love everything that around me.

I appreciate it.

Even sometime i feel like dying,

i knew it was really so harsh...

but yet i manage to gain over it,

this is a pathway or stage that let us grow.

It was a test that decide whether how far you can stand.

I'm a leader,

I'm an elder,

I'm a woman that can handle things well without a man,

so i need to prove it that....

whether how far i can stand.

Craping

Let's START craping now!

Due to public holiday that i got,

i decide to go back my hometown 

to stick together with my family!

(:

I'm happy ......

Photo captured in my office,

when lunch break.

I will be back to pg again in Saturday morning,

by flight and will be pick up by my lovely B.

I can see him when i arrive in pg airport!

Wooo

I'm delighted!

Hehehehe

Sound very stupid huh?

But every single human that in love,

especially girls are actually will do a lot of stupid things

and also some stupid emotions will be carried...

Just like me!

(:

Yea baby i need you from time to time,

if really without you......

I guess i..... 

Hmm,.. dont even dare to think more about that.

Oppps.!

It's really sound that i'm really too rely on him i guess.

Was really bored at home,

besides helping my parents i had nothing to do..

So this is why i have plenty of time to blog and fb.

I miss my B

Don't really can get what he was really busy with...

B i miss you like hell...

Did you feel it?

I wish you're here with me everyday......

I wish you're here to smile with me everyday.......

Baby i love you !

Sweet love

Sweet love that i had now

It's really awesome!

I love my B & the way he love me thou.

Whenever he was there,

you can see my true smile that really apply on my face.

Its so real... 

I mean its the sign of happiness that really came out from my heart!

Does it look sweet ?

My friends were all comment about it,

: " OHhhh my, you smile so sweet! "

When they captured that photo for me.

Because ... he was there in my mind and my heart for every moment.

My salad

Wanna diet so so much!

As i really gain weight on this recently...

So sad about that.

So trying to eat lesser and skip my dinner.

Vegetables is the best choice when meal time (:

Actually i miss my long hair this recently,

may be when i looked back the old photo that i took last time.

Thus, i must very hardworking to wash my hair 

&

treatment on it!

Reason being: I wan my long hair back!

Hehehehe

I want the lady look back,

i mean the sweet lady look...

Probably will more amaze my B i guess....

Hehehehe

I love him

I really love him

I mean i super duper wooper love him