Byebye

Mariah Carey - Byebye

The song kept replay.

I was again so moody.

I'm sorry.

But no matter how,

life will still continue on.

I'll smile and say byebye to you and those memory we had.

You're the past for me and i'll just move on with my dreams.

But one thing would never change,

no matter how hard,

I'll still let myself look charm and attractive.

Its a part of my life for being look pretty (:

Haha

Honestly i did sad and feel hurt when i want break up.

But the thing is just i did not say it out.

I even call my dad and tell him the truth,

because i was totally blank.

I knew i would not regret for my decision,

but just to release out the feeling.

Daddy was so warm,

like a sunshine to me,

keep convince me and told me if that was true love

"You will not loose it no matter how tough"

His words so mean to me,

it make me feel so safe.

I really miss him and home a lot.

I'll get back home soon, on this wed.

Can't wait so!

He did not find me for about one day,

i knew this thing would happen.

Its ok i'll let the time to prove it.

I can bear with it.

He may not really treat me as a close friend as i do,

but no matter how i still own the confident towards him.

I know he can do it.

As last time, he even more deep in love in someone,

but at last he did let go also.

Let go is also a knowlegde that we will learnt

along the way,

this is life - human's interesting life.

By the way,

i'll take good care on myself.

I won't let myself suffer for the third time,

may be i have be too becareful and protected.

Thus,

i did not really let myself out into a relationship.

May be i'll be ready after sometime,

may be it takes years.

But no matter how,

i will always pray for him,

hope he stay happy and healthy

and find his happiness!

他 值得被真心对待

依然是朋友

这首歌好像提醒我很多东西

说了分开而不心疼是假的

我不是娃娃，我也是人

有血有肉的人，只是别个星球派来而已

还记得我在唱k时唱错结果他们都在笑我

回想起那一个星期

我们之间有好多的回忆

我们都好开心

真的太美好了

遗失了的美好

‘才知道有些感受我和他谁都不曾说出口’

或许我们之间就是要这么的复杂

我有问过他

我们是否注定要在一起？他说不知道

不过我告诉他我们的确注定要认识的

我们 都不曾失去过什么

我们 依然是朋友

Back to ' start '

Love

I guess i not dare to touch it anymore.

I decide to be close friend rather than be lover with him.

I knew it hurts.

But

I really can't fall in love with him.

The problem was with me.

I'm the one who mess up everything.

He was a nice guy,

but just i did not really grab it well.

I grab it well once just for a temporarily,

and yet i decide to let go after jus a few weeks.

He understand why i have that decision,

but yet for him,

i still think too much.

Yea

I think too much,

i think a lot of thing.

As my life does not come in easy way

and i don't want it to be simple and easy life.

I prefer to face challenges and difficulties

to make me more strong

and my life more colourful.

I recall back a lot of thing now.

The day we hang out together.

Hard Rock, Sunset Bistro, Mois, Queensbay ...

The one week trip was a present that given by god

as i really appreciate it.

Sorry

In my deep of heart,

that was a place to store you and the memory.

May god bless you

and stay happy all the time.

Forget the past,

look forward the future.

Perhaps

we will meet each other at the other country

or

we may bump into each other

Nothing is impossible right?

Love

was when we're together in that week.

You did your role very well

Good bf to have.

5 days 4 nights

He was back.

Jus now after he join us the last event, red box.

In a rush, after saying goodbye he was far from me.

In the late of midnight now, i did call him but i guess he already fall asleep.

How could he did not call me tho? I thought wanna talk to him somemore.

Listening tank's song, 'ru guo wo bian cheng hui yi'

and i recall back a lot of memory that we had gone through this fews days.

Short trip we had actually.

But i appreciate it.

Am i really be ready and prepared to stay with him for life?

But for now, i just hope we can stay happy all the time.

No more such foolish question appear in my head.

Good night dear.

Stay calm and sweet dream.

* miss you

Waiting

Waiting for my dear to come

19 October 2009

It was a lovely monday i had today.

I hang out with 2 babe,

we hang out to prangin after report back to college.

Tommorrow gonna get back to college,

what a lovely day!

We'll have a lot of girls talks i guess.

Honestly,

i miss my college life so much!

So tommorrow will be a wonderful day.

My dear was on the way to penang,

he was now driving from butterworth.

We gonna meet soon,

miss him so much (:

Hope my sweet day never end that fast,

i'll remember this unforgetable week!

Stay happy always

CHEERS!

会想了

15 October 2009

会想了

♥

我今年19，但却好像超越了

是思想超越了实际的年龄

我在一个很温馨的家庭长大

不过那是因为有位全天下最好的父亲大人

他 是全天下最好的男人

不饮酒，不抽烟，不赌，不嫖妓

他 注重健康，家教，营养，家庭和孩子

他 很努力，忙了一大半辈子

为的是他的家人

我很爱这个家，很重视它

我想帮忙父亲减轻他的负担

不要他这么劳累，

我想要做点东西，

我想扛起这个家

每个人在这世上都会有人生的目标

否则人生就毫无味道和意义了

我 要成为能够在20几岁就拥有5个位数收入

的少数人，

我 要实现我答应家人要带他们去旅行的

承诺，

我 要当一位孝顺的女儿

称职的女朋友或太太

我 要我的家人过好的生活而自己辛苦点

都无所谓

我不希望他们担心或操心

因为 我很清楚自己在做什么

我没有时间好浪费

每一分每一秒 都好珍贵

因为 我永远都活在当下

没有人知道自己能呆在这世界到多久

但起码在生时 做一些自己想要做的

以免之后带着遗憾或后悔

那岂不是更好吗？

迟来的爱 是最让人痛苦的

趁还看到的时候，向我们的至亲

或挚爱

示好，示爱

人生是无常的

爱是无限的，多关心周遭的人

或许你会发现这世界真的还很温暖

♥

如果

有一天你离开了，

你最放不下的是什么？

什么是会让你后悔不已的？

想一想 或许你就知道你该做什么了

要成为别人欣赏的人

一定要很有涵养，智慧和很好的情绪

一般的人或许只会盲目过生活

我们 不要

我们要学会规划我们的未来

因为决定权在我们的手中

我们的人生是如何去创造自己

而不是寻找自己

把自己的潜能发挥出来

那你就是最耀眼的一颗星

我 想成为那耀眼的一颗星

所以 我愿意接受挑战

我的未来不是梦

在此

也想感谢

之前瞧不起我的人

伤害过我的人

背叛过我的人

唱衰我的人

谢谢你们 让我学会应付困难

成长

坚强

我会加油

Photo Shooting

♥

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♥

15 October 2009

Photo Shooting

I love photo shooting so much,

so i did take a lot of pictures.

I really enjoy it when i was taking photo.

♥

Its was a new try and i really lik it.

First time wearing bikini to take photo.

Thanks for Jonathan Hensom,

for helping shooting.

I owe him one meal

hehe

I hope to have another shooting.

I am greedy,

I wan more more more !

Next time will try different wearing (:

I hope to be hot and sexy

lol

♥

And i was really happy to find a lover,

who really accept ' me '.

I mean he accept everything of me,

he wont mind yet still proud of me.

Ohs my what a lovely dear,

how could i dont love him?

I care you more than words can say.

Stay happy and healthy ya.

end

Webcam*ing

14 October 2009

Webcam*ing

Chat with my sweet one using webcam,

i look damn normal with my spec,

but its ok.

As he told me,

he dont mind,

he like me just the way i am.

*wink

Touch T_T

Waiting him to come and visit me.

Countdown 6 more days.

Ohs my.

I miss him so much honestly.

He say the bunny too small,

gonna buy me a BIG one, lol.

So nice (:

Becaus i also waiting people to buy me,

haha.

Luckily i met him.

Thanks god

Thanks dear,

I love you.

Hang out

14 October 2009

Hang out with may sin

We meet each other after my working hours.

So happy to see her,

as last time we staying together.

We create a lot of noise,

but those memories cherrish in our heart.

May Sin

Stay strong and be urself no matter how,

hope you and ah hung stay sweet,

jiayou.

end

Dinner in Sasame, g Hotel

11 October 2009

Dinner in Sasame, g Hotel

Sasame Restaurant is a fine dining restaurant.

The food that offer is in a small portion

and serve in fine dining ways.

We have a marvellous dinner at that night

and i was happy to dine with them.

They're really pretty and friendly.

So envy ...

Hmm post out the photo to

represent everything.

Its was happy night.

I appreciate you all (:

end

Before & After

13 October 2009

Before & After

Recently i conclude out one thing,

in this world all women or gals

actually are pretty,

just they did not realize about it.

By make up, dress code and hairstyles

will change a ugly duckling into a beautiful swam!

Do you agree with it or not?

Let's see and conclude.

I have a real and true people,

who really turn pretty and own herself confident.

Last time,

when she still in secondary school,

she look very common and normal.

But now,

she really look great!

Before

The right side was me

After

No people is perfect in this world,

but yet we still can achieve excellent (:

" You can commit for excellent but not perfect! "

Chinese phares : 世界上没有丑女人只有懒女人

So if you really wan to become pretty and

own self-confident.

You can approach me (:

I'll share with you.

Belief yourself and you can have it

Recall back III

12 October 2009

Recall Back III

Left side was me, look very 'tou ru' rite? lol

Recall back college life part 3

It was really so great to have them!

Wearing school uniform and hang out everywhere

was the common thing that we did when in Sem 3

As our Sem 3 time table is the less one

compare to sem 1 and 2.

I think after our practical training,

we gonna to organize a uniform party.

Becaus a lot of them really miss the time that we're together!

Stay healthy and happy

end

Miss him

I miss my dear so much

Wanna be by his side

Wanna hug him so much

Wanna go holiday with him

Wan him so bad!

Never knew i can miss like this,

i guess i really can get into the relationship.

I really miss him so bad!

Ohs my,

he promise to visit me.

But still,

i need to wait for a week more.

I love him and i miss him so much

Appreciate

My dad with her two lovely daughter, taken 2007

Taken 2008, Cny

Taken 2007, mu youngest bro, very yo man!

Taken 2009, does my dad look like pilot?

Taken 2007, Dec

* My mum does not like photo shooting, so she was not there >.< *

11 October 2009

Appreciate

I appreciate my family so much in my life♥

My life♥ will incomplete if without them.

I love them so much!

They're really irresplaceable,

i promise to myself that i will take care of them,

when the right time.

Family

Friends

Dear

and also some VIP people

Playing a important role in my life♥

I hope there are always different stories and memories

when i be with them!

So that, my life♥ will be more interesting...

I appreciate everything that came into my life♥

Thanks god!