真心换背叛，绝情

原来 真心换背叛，绝情 是这样的滋味

我 真的很想给他一巴 要他醒悟

这一次 真的够了

我 明白了

下一次 我会更小心了 朋友之间 也得防

否则 受伤的那个会是自己

我不想浪费时间了

往我的目标方向前进

除了家人 事业

其他的 无所谓

我没那个必要

有时候 真的有时候

我会希望我遇到的难题 可以不要这么多吗

可是我知道 就因为这样

我变得更坚强 更勇敢

我知道 我绝对受益

但是 有时我会担心 我会撑不过来

可能 佛陀真的对我那么有信心吗

我也想像其他和我年纪一样的女生

上上课 谈恋爱 逛街 聊聊天 郊游

可是我知道 我却选了一条比较辛苦的路

我 放弃了 可以升大学的希望

我 很想去国外念书

我 也很想 在国外念书时 找个大学男朋友

可是 我知道 这只是一个梦

一个美丽的梦

或许把 这个梦 留给我的弟妹

或许比较实际 比较能实现

我从来 也没有埋怨

我的命运已经很好了

感恩都来不及了 哪来埋怨

如果不是为了家人

或许我没那么勇敢 坚强

我想要证明 我 不输人

我虽然是个女人 但绝对有能力为父亲分担

为了 他们

我无怨无悔 我心甘情愿

这一辈子 最值得的

还是 因为我拥有他们

其他的都是假的

无论发生什么事

他们就是二话不说的站在你那边支持你

他们不会怀疑你 不会背叛你

永永远远 爱着你

所以 家人对我永远是最重要的

我一路走来 一直都在学习

一直都在领悟 这个人生

我 或许 遇到逆境比较多

但我感谢它 因为真的让我成长很多

我开始学会从逆境中走向顺境

也开始学会 如何面对

有时被冷水淋 才能让我们更快成长
我们浇花浇树时 不都用冷水
是不是它们也成长得比较快呢

无论如何 我还是要感谢在我生命出现过的人
无论是 贵人 敌人 路人 陌生人 亲人 爱人
都是为我的人生添上色彩的人
每一个人给的颜色都不一样
这样我才有七彩

感恩佛陀 点醒我
引导我走向我该走的地方

过去的我不会留恋 因为我一直往前跑
追求 未来
明天不一定会更好 但更好的明天一定会来到
爱花 加油！小小的挫折没有什么！

3 days 2 night in pg

MUMMY , AUNT & GRANDMA

Came to Penang for visit me !

* No pictures , sorry
   But only with words.

They

decided to visit me in last minute

as my aunt not sure that whether she can get

off day from her boss or not.

First night,

stayed at Evergreen Laurel Hotel.

We went Prangin Mall for shopping and

dinner at newland.

Night time,

we went to batu ferrighi for a 'look'.

The next day,

early in the morning,

we went for dim sum that located opposite KDU college.

Then,

I brought them for a tour in my college.

After that,

we went for Kek Lok Shi.

The last visit they had was

about ten years before,

so they found out that now

it was really different from last time.

Then,

we had the famous laksa in Ayer Itam.

Taste great!

Then,

headed back to gurney.

Shopping again !

Went for Sakae Sushi for high tea

and Gurney Drive for dinner.

Damn so many people!

They sleep at my place ~

We was chit-chatting before sleep.

3rd day,

had breakfast in Pulau Tikus

while

lunch in New World Park in

one chinese restaurant.

Send them back to ferry terminal,

waved my hand and said good bye.

I miss them so much!

I really appreciate that they are always there

for me (:

I love you mama, aunt, grandma

and my family !

*No one else can
stay in my heart,
except you all !

I shall get more rest

SICK .

Hope to get recover soon,

Papa although i was not feeling well,

but still i will wait you there.

No matter how hard or difficult will be,

i will try my very best to you!

NO MORE SICK

Feeling well soon (:

Good nite & stay happy

* When i really try my very best,

the result will not upset me.

In my mind,

I believe if you would not give up that easy,

you will get the result that you want,

why?

You believe in yourself that nothing is impossible.

There's a Hero Lies In Me

In my heart, there is always a Hero ...
The Hero was in my heart since for so long.
He give me motivation to move on.
He give me strength and energy.

So when i feel like hope is gone,
i will look inside my heart and be strong,
as i will finally see him that he was lies with me.

He was always my bright star,
he will always be the one i care the most.
I really so appreciate that god give him to me.
I will try my very very best to love him
and stay with him until the end of my day.

Good luck for tomorrow marathon!
I will wait you in the final point.
I love you , papa!
Take good care, you're the Hero that lies in me...

Take good care and rest well

Not enough sleep for this few days.

So tired. Later still wanna hang out with frens until midnight lol

But at least they accompany me when i'm not happy.

They playing important roles to cheer me up !

Tommorrow gonna sleep until evening to cover back.

Since i have not working.

Rest well (:

Dress up and make up done now.

Waiting for her to fetch me.

Worry about myself that did i really need someone to assist me always?

Ohs my. Can i cheer myself up?

Sure of course, by shopping!

After shopping, everything will be forgoted hehe

Hmm but since my fren so so so good wanna cheer me,

so save money save time and save energy * for myself

Bye and good night.

Sweet dream and sleep tight!

Muackx ~

It's November

I choose the path way that less people took.

I choose to be someone that really ' wow '.

The journey begin.

I need to move forward with double step and energy.

No regret no tears no even a word that show it was harsh.

Proud to be me.

Proud to have dreams, proud to have everything i had.

I have a deep breath and thought this few day.

I don't want to be regret.

God must always notice about me.

Because when each time,

I was in a 'stuck' condition,

He will show me the right way where i suppose to go.

It's November again.

I will not forget last year, what happen to me in this month.

I had wake up.

Enough for me to have nonsence play and fooling around.

I  found out one thing.

I, myself was the most biggest challenge in the world.

I'll get through it.

Stay calm and still, i'll work it out.

It was winter in oversea.

I will have a chance to see the snow by my eyes and by myself.

Snowing symbolize warm and romantic time for me.

Let's think about you sitting in front of the ' house fire ',

putting ur hand beside it to get warm and drink a cup of hot chocolate.

Hmmm...... how nice it could be.

Ohs my , i will have it.. i knew.

People say, story will make someone to become more interesting.
(有故事的人）

So, i like story.

I'll have a lot of story to share when i was on top.

And you know what, i was also talkative.

So, i guess i'll be a good story teller and story's background.

I mean... good story and good teller.

Listen to saxophone music now.

Damn smooth and relax, make my brain keep working.

Non stop illustarte a lot of thing ....

Yea, life is so interesting!

Most of all, i enjoy my life.

No matter it was sweet or bitter, i still move on with a frown smile.

Why not smile? Since everyday when we open up our eyes,

we still see the blue sky and the one we love at our aside.

Mmmm what a lovely November...

The sparks for the dreams lighted up and will keep on light.

I love ♥  myself so much (:

曾经

曾经　我拥有好多毫无限的能力

为爱奔波劳累

现在　感觉没有这样的理由或力气了

再刻骨铭心的爱　都会有尽头的一天

除非　死时都抱在一起死

但是　这美丽的神话

又有多少人会有

在一起　只需要两颗心

真的就这样吗

或许　我真的看得比较远

或许　我真的想得比较多

我没有时间　再玩爱情这游戏

与其　浪费时间倒不如一个人

过我自己的生活

爱情　不把它包装起来

其实　只有责任没有浪漫

我　不要求浪漫

不要求甜言蜜语

不要求爱的轰轰烈烈

只要份　稳当而安定的感情

我　需要个男人

成熟　稳中的男人

事业　家庭并重的男人

我想我的要求也不过分吧

只不过　我一直好像还没遇到对的人

过去　从来我都不会留恋

因为　我一直在寻找在追求未来

与其　守着未知数的他

倒不如趁早放手

这样　对他也公平

曾经　我真的很爱他

但那份爱　早就成为过去

而那时的我　也停留在过去

如果　如今我真的再爱上他

我　会把他给找回

但　未来的未知数太多了

我　不能够松懈

我得继续　往前跑

感情　我让它顺其自然

但不是对的人　我决不会心软

生命是脆弱的

原来生命是那么的脆弱

我 其实知道很久了

只是这一次 真的让我好好反省

到底活在这世上为了什么

一场意外就带走了一位我认识的朋友

我和她 并不熟悉但是她是我学长的女朋友

这件新闻很轰动 相信很多人都会议论纷纷

我没想过会在报章上会看到这样的事

更没想过 她会离开

我 替爱她的人难过

她的家人 朋友 甚至是男朋友

如果有天 我也离开了

想想我的父母 弟妹 还有好多爱我的人不知会怎样

我想 肯定痛死了

尤其是我的双亲 辛辛苦苦把我养的那么大

那份痛 真的只往心里流

那份伤 也只有他们知道

我 不想我的人生有任何遗憾

我想说 我每天都很认真在过我的生活

每一分 每一秒 我都很珍惜

我们 或许有很多选择

但往往或许 我们没有选择

她 没有选择

她 才19/20 岁  还很年轻 还有很长的路要走

可是 老天已经把她带走了

我想每个人真的需要找到活着的原因

不要 盲目的活着 盲目的郭每一天

毫无目标 毫无乐趣的

起码 我知道 我为了家人而很努力的生活

或许 这就是 我的原因 和我的推动力

我 和爱 我的父母和弟妹

尤其是父亲 他是我的命根

我不贪心 我只希望 在我还没达成我的梦想时

他 都能陪在我身边

“我很爱我的爸爸”

我只希望 给他最好的

人家都说 把好的留给你爱的人

Dad

I love him so much.

Daddy

was a great gift from god,

i was so glad i'm her daughter.

Jus back from my home,

so sweet so warm so nice.

Daddy

hold me tight once i reach jetty.

He know i'm confusing in love,

he know i lost.

But he give me a very good place to rely on.

He told me to be strong,

he told me whatever i decide,

he is always be there for me.

Damn touch!

I love him more than i could say.

He was really number 1 in my heart,

irresplaceable.

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I feel bad about myslef this fews days.

I found out that,

i seem like a 'broom star' that appear in his life.

May be without knowing me,

his life will be better.

But honestly,

we're born to know each other.

From the first day,

when we're in the same class,

there're something happened that really unexplainable.

Take care.

I'll keep the secret in my deep heart

Byebye

Mariah Carey - Byebye

The song kept replay.

I was again so moody.

I'm sorry.

But no matter how,

life will still continue on.

I'll smile and say byebye to you and those memory we had.

You're the past for me and i'll just move on with my dreams.

But one thing would never change,

no matter how hard,

I'll still let myself look charm and attractive.

Its a part of my life for being look pretty (:

Haha

Honestly i did sad and feel hurt when i want break up.

But the thing is just i did not say it out.

I even call my dad and tell him the truth,

because i was totally blank.

I knew i would not regret for my decision,

but just to release out the feeling.

Daddy was so warm,

like a sunshine to me,

keep convince me and told me if that was true love

"You will not loose it no matter how tough"

His words so mean to me,

it make me feel so safe.

I really miss him and home a lot.

I'll get back home soon, on this wed.

Can't wait so!

He did not find me for about one day,

i knew this thing would happen.

Its ok i'll let the time to prove it.

I can bear with it.

He may not really treat me as a close friend as i do,

but no matter how i still own the confident towards him.

I know he can do it.

As last time, he even more deep in love in someone,

but at last he did let go also.

Let go is also a knowlegde that we will learnt

along the way,

this is life - human's interesting life.

By the way,

i'll take good care on myself.

I won't let myself suffer for the third time,

may be i have be too becareful and protected.

Thus,

i did not really let myself out into a relationship.

May be i'll be ready after sometime,

may be it takes years.

But no matter how,

i will always pray for him,

hope he stay happy and healthy

and find his happiness!

他 值得被真心对待

依然是朋友

这首歌好像提醒我很多东西

说了分开而不心疼是假的

我不是娃娃，我也是人

有血有肉的人，只是别个星球派来而已

还记得我在唱k时唱错结果他们都在笑我

回想起那一个星期

我们之间有好多的回忆

我们都好开心

真的太美好了

遗失了的美好

‘才知道有些感受我和他谁都不曾说出口’

或许我们之间就是要这么的复杂

我有问过他

我们是否注定要在一起？他说不知道

不过我告诉他我们的确注定要认识的

我们 都不曾失去过什么

我们 依然是朋友

Back to ' start '

Love

I guess i not dare to touch it anymore.

I decide to be close friend rather than be lover with him.

I knew it hurts.

But

I really can't fall in love with him.

The problem was with me.

I'm the one who mess up everything.

He was a nice guy,

but just i did not really grab it well.

I grab it well once just for a temporarily,

and yet i decide to let go after jus a few weeks.

He understand why i have that decision,

but yet for him,

i still think too much.

Yea

I think too much,

i think a lot of thing.

As my life does not come in easy way

and i don't want it to be simple and easy life.

I prefer to face challenges and difficulties

to make me more strong

and my life more colourful.

I recall back a lot of thing now.

The day we hang out together.

Hard Rock, Sunset Bistro, Mois, Queensbay ...

The one week trip was a present that given by god

as i really appreciate it.

Sorry

In my deep of heart,

that was a place to store you and the memory.

May god bless you

and stay happy all the time.

Forget the past,

look forward the future.

Perhaps

we will meet each other at the other country

or

we may bump into each other

Nothing is impossible right?

Love

was when we're together in that week.

You did your role very well

Good bf to have.

5 days 4 nights

He was back.

Jus now after he join us the last event, red box.

In a rush, after saying goodbye he was far from me.

In the late of midnight now, i did call him but i guess he already fall asleep.

How could he did not call me tho? I thought wanna talk to him somemore.

Listening tank's song, 'ru guo wo bian cheng hui yi'

and i recall back a lot of memory that we had gone through this fews days.

Short trip we had actually.

But i appreciate it.

Am i really be ready and prepared to stay with him for life?

But for now, i just hope we can stay happy all the time.

No more such foolish question appear in my head.

Good night dear.

Stay calm and sweet dream.

* miss you

Waiting

Waiting for my dear to come

19 October 2009

It was a lovely monday i had today.

I hang out with 2 babe,

we hang out to prangin after report back to college.

Tommorrow gonna get back to college,

what a lovely day!

We'll have a lot of girls talks i guess.

Honestly,

i miss my college life so much!

So tommorrow will be a wonderful day.

My dear was on the way to penang,

he was now driving from butterworth.

We gonna meet soon,

miss him so much (:

Hope my sweet day never end that fast,

i'll remember this unforgetable week!

Stay happy always

CHEERS!

会想了

15 October 2009

会想了

♥

我今年19，但却好像超越了

是思想超越了实际的年龄

我在一个很温馨的家庭长大

不过那是因为有位全天下最好的父亲大人

他 是全天下最好的男人

不饮酒，不抽烟，不赌，不嫖妓

他 注重健康，家教，营养，家庭和孩子

他 很努力，忙了一大半辈子

为的是他的家人

我很爱这个家，很重视它

我想帮忙父亲减轻他的负担

不要他这么劳累，

我想要做点东西，

我想扛起这个家

每个人在这世上都会有人生的目标

否则人生就毫无味道和意义了

我 要成为能够在20几岁就拥有5个位数收入

的少数人，

我 要实现我答应家人要带他们去旅行的

承诺，

我 要当一位孝顺的女儿

称职的女朋友或太太

我 要我的家人过好的生活而自己辛苦点

都无所谓

我不希望他们担心或操心

因为 我很清楚自己在做什么

我没有时间好浪费

每一分每一秒 都好珍贵

因为 我永远都活在当下

没有人知道自己能呆在这世界到多久

但起码在生时 做一些自己想要做的

以免之后带着遗憾或后悔

那岂不是更好吗？

迟来的爱 是最让人痛苦的

趁还看到的时候，向我们的至亲

或挚爱

示好，示爱

人生是无常的

爱是无限的，多关心周遭的人

或许你会发现这世界真的还很温暖

♥

如果

有一天你离开了，

你最放不下的是什么？

什么是会让你后悔不已的？

想一想 或许你就知道你该做什么了

要成为别人欣赏的人

一定要很有涵养，智慧和很好的情绪

一般的人或许只会盲目过生活

我们 不要

我们要学会规划我们的未来

因为决定权在我们的手中

我们的人生是如何去创造自己

而不是寻找自己

把自己的潜能发挥出来

那你就是最耀眼的一颗星

我 想成为那耀眼的一颗星

所以 我愿意接受挑战

我的未来不是梦

在此

也想感谢

之前瞧不起我的人

伤害过我的人

背叛过我的人

唱衰我的人

谢谢你们 让我学会应付困难

成长

坚强

我会加油

Photo Shooting

♥

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♥

15 October 2009

Photo Shooting

I love photo shooting so much,

so i did take a lot of pictures.

I really enjoy it when i was taking photo.

♥

Its was a new try and i really lik it.

First time wearing bikini to take photo.

Thanks for Jonathan Hensom,

for helping shooting.

I owe him one meal

hehe

I hope to have another shooting.

I am greedy,

I wan more more more !

Next time will try different wearing (:

I hope to be hot and sexy

lol

♥

And i was really happy to find a lover,

who really accept ' me '.

I mean he accept everything of me,

he wont mind yet still proud of me.

Ohs my what a lovely dear,

how could i dont love him?

I care you more than words can say.

Stay happy and healthy ya.

end

Webcam*ing

14 October 2009

Webcam*ing

Chat with my sweet one using webcam,

i look damn normal with my spec,

but its ok.

As he told me,

he dont mind,

he like me just the way i am.

*wink

Touch T_T

Waiting him to come and visit me.

Countdown 6 more days.

Ohs my.

I miss him so much honestly.

He say the bunny too small,

gonna buy me a BIG one, lol.

So nice (:

Becaus i also waiting people to buy me,

haha.

Luckily i met him.

Thanks god

Thanks dear,

I love you.

Hang out

14 October 2009

Hang out with may sin

We meet each other after my working hours.

So happy to see her,

as last time we staying together.

We create a lot of noise,

but those memories cherrish in our heart.

May Sin

Stay strong and be urself no matter how,

hope you and ah hung stay sweet,

jiayou.

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Dinner in Sasame, g Hotel

11 October 2009

Dinner in Sasame, g Hotel

Sasame Restaurant is a fine dining restaurant.

The food that offer is in a small portion

and serve in fine dining ways.

We have a marvellous dinner at that night

and i was happy to dine with them.

They're really pretty and friendly.

So envy ...

Hmm post out the photo to

represent everything.

Its was happy night.

I appreciate you all (:

end