我决定了

很多人告诉我 女人是狠心的动物

当她们不要了 就会很绝情的

我也是女人 我也会绝情？

我不懂我是否算绝情

但我决定了 决定离开了

我告诉过他 我会离开

我会用种种方法 确定我真的离开了

我搬离了我原来一直住的家

刚好也是个机缘

因为本来就只是住到这个月尾

新的住宿其实距离现在的地方一段距离

我把所有以前的信息全都删除了

我把唯一他对我好的一切都没留下了

希望我能好好加油

毕竟放下和离开其实需要很大的勇气

再加上没有实际的分手场合

让人很难跨那一步

我其实一直都知道

他不是那么寒心的人

但是 我希望之后换他来唤醒我

如果以后还有缘的话

但这一次就已一个没有结束的结束来了断

我们之间的一切

怎样的爱情最刻骨？

没有结果 没有一定定义

的爱情最刻骨 最美丽

我们之间算是吧

相爱但却不能走下去

见到对方时目光焦点都会在对方身上移动

眼神的交错会让俩人挫愣一会

若隐若现的暧昧 的关心

真叫人摸不着头脑

我们真的就这样吧

你对着我都累了

是我的失败让你感到累了

是我的执著让自己一次比一次更受伤

所以你放心

我这一次知道痛字怎么写了

我终于知道自己是真的爱你

而不是因为寂寞或者依赖

Late Midnight

10.8.10

Woops

Its kinda late now, i mean very very late.

Bt i still here to blog as i just got a chance to

upload my photo.

So many photo was not been arranged yet.

Was in a mess...

* headache

Its ok,

Let just blog a simple one,

let you all know bout my life n look (:

This was current me,

so so so current...

HAHA

I love myself.

I would not let myself feel the pain anymore.

Will have lots of activities, party and mayb dinner.

Although actually i'm not that into it,

but for now... i mean temporarily,

i need to use it.

If not i'll have a lot of thoughts when i come to emptyness.

I dont want that.

I want being fulled and filled.

Yea, my laopo was right.

I'll get through this time no matter how.

Thanks laopo, love you!

Ohs shit!!!

I just left 5 hours only...

God ... 24 hours was not enough for me =(

Picture was took in Station One

Was learning some new stuff from my friend

She was a great one!

Teechee ;D

Stay turned; will be right back !

Muackxxx

L o V e .

Hurts

You hurt me so much this time.

My heart was bleeding.

My soul was so weak.

My brain was blank.

My body was break into pieces.

I hate you this time.

Hate you be so cool-blooded.

I swear this time was the last time.

DAMN!

I get enough of it.

I admit i'm the loser in this game.

I wanna quit and no for the next time.

I'll try my very very best fucking leaving you!

The words that you said keep playing in my head.

Those words took tones of my tears.

Seriously, i wanna punch you so much!

Fuck you!

I'll get my revenge one day.

Ur loss not mine.

Pray *ing . Miss*ing

Praying for tomorrow , hope there will not be a very big issue
Praying for my beloved daddy , hope he'll recover soon
Praying for my love one , hope he won and get the prize
* but he din even call me so mean that....???
Praying i'll be more cautions and reduce those silly mistakes
Praying my day after tomorrow will be more beautiful
Praying i'll gonna step forwards without be afraid
Praying i'll gain back my luck and confidence

I'll gone through,
I'll be alright.
Everything will be fine.

Dont give too much pressure, there's nothing to be worry.

C H E E R S
(:

I miss my parents,

I miss my daddy and mum,

I'm currently waiting the day to be home.

Still countdown...

Just now just finish talked with my lovely dad,

he was right.

He was the only one who was really understand me,

he was irresplaceble.

Mum was waiting the day i'll be back too.

She promise to cook my favourites's.

Staying outside alone , apart from family ...

is not a nice feeling to have.

As home was the best place for us (:

You know why?

Home Sweet Home !!!

My Feeling

Let's blog about my recent feeling...

I mean the emotions.

Listening to Mariah Carey - I Still Believe

while blogging this post.

This song was a song that full with hope.

Its was the best to decribe my feeling.

I did told myself and even my close friend that i wanna let go him,

and forget everything to ensure that i can have a new life.

Restart everything and do not let myself get hurts again.

But its doesnt works at all...

As in my mind there are always a hope for me.

I do always hope that there will be someday for me & him

to be in love and together again.

I knew i should not have that thought anymore,

but ... i still feel like ... he was still there for me.

He was still care about me.

May be he was just too busy,

and that is not the reason to let me leave him away.

Unless he really does not like me anymore,

then only i'll move away.

I would say,

I'll let time to proove everything.

Whether we really can be again or not,

that will be an answer after ... then.

So, let moving forward together with time,

wisely use our time and manage it well.

I'll not waste it anymore as i really found out that time flies.

I wanna grab it tight and do things effectively.

I wanna proove that how much i love and i care about him,

i wanna proove that how much i can be improved by this few months,

i wanna proove that i can manage well my career and him at the same time.,.

There are still lots that i wanna proove..

But the only and one was still go back to.... my love towards him.

I would say,

there nothing to be doubt for it.

I'm running after you,

chasing you behind and yelling loud that

" I love you baby and i just need you...... "

I miss you.

Honestly, i really miss you.

Weeks for us does not seen each other

and days for us does not contact each other ...

There are few time,

i grab up my phone tight but just do not brave enough

to give you a call to listen to ur voice.

I was really contracdiction.

Gosh!