Blur

Well, i'm so lost this recently...

Feel like my life or my world become more n more complicated!

Sometime,

just wanna dump everything and run away...

But could i do so?

NO WAY!!!

I love my family

How do i can do so?

N now i had attached to someone that really love me

& i love him too of caus...

Actually i dont have much demand

A simple one...

Very simple one....................... Hmmm

I want a peaceful life

Sweet and peace!

I want my family stay happy all the time

I want me & my B relationship could be stable a bit

Since when i also dont know,

I start to worry ....

Worry about this, worry about that,

my mind didnt really get a chance to relax...

Worry about life, work, relatiohship...

But for me,

i knew which was the main one will easily affected my mind & soul

That is something out of human's control.

I'm tough when come to problems or challenges,

i dare to fight back whenever i'm right.

But when come to this problem,

I always will be a loser.

In this game,

always end up...

i get hurt i get pain and i get nothing besides weaken my body.

Luckily,

i still able to stand up back and look forward for future.

Becaus i knew,

only me, myself who are holding my life on.

We cant choose where we being born, the family background

and even our everything...

But we still can choose the pathway that we wanna to live,

we still can create the lifestyle that we want that we demand.

I want a happy, peaceful, sweet and healthy lifestyle.

I want a colourful life that bring joy and also cheer people around me.

I want a life that i would not regret if come to dead.

Thus,

I'll try my best to really live in this world.

Life is short but yet i'll make it meaningful!

(:

I'm blur due to the subborness of myself to look at the problems.

Becaus i hold my both hand tight with the problems....

N that's why i'm suffer.

I feel stress, i feel my heart tight and barely to breath.

So, i need to learn how to open up my fingers and let go the things...

Sometime, only let go we'll get back the freedom or the space that we want.

I always mention it as - the comfort zone!

Haha

Step behind a step, you'll see the different.

You'll realize and found out that it wasnt really that bad.

Live your life with yourself , the true of you.

Unleash your potential and make it come true.

I love my life

I love everything that around me.

I appreciate it.

Even sometime i feel like dying,

i knew it was really so harsh...

but yet i manage to gain over it,

this is a pathway or stage that let us grow.

It was a test that decide whether how far you can stand.

I'm a leader,

I'm an elder,

I'm a woman that can handle things well without a man,

so i need to prove it that....

whether how far i can stand.

Craping

Let's START craping now!

Due to public holiday that i got,

i decide to go back my hometown 

to stick together with my family!

(:

I'm happy ......

Photo captured in my office,

when lunch break.

I will be back to pg again in Saturday morning,

by flight and will be pick up by my lovely B.

I can see him when i arrive in pg airport!

Wooo

I'm delighted!

Hehehehe

Sound very stupid huh?

But every single human that in love,

especially girls are actually will do a lot of stupid things

and also some stupid emotions will be carried...

Just like me!

(:

Yea baby i need you from time to time,

if really without you......

I guess i..... 

Hmm,.. dont even dare to think more about that.

Oppps.!

It's really sound that i'm really too rely on him i guess.

Was really bored at home,

besides helping my parents i had nothing to do..

So this is why i have plenty of time to blog and fb.

I miss my B

Don't really can get what he was really busy with...

B i miss you like hell...

Did you feel it?

I wish you're here with me everyday......

I wish you're here to smile with me everyday.......

Baby i love you !

Sweet love

Sweet love that i had now

It's really awesome!

I love my B & the way he love me thou.

Whenever he was there,

you can see my true smile that really apply on my face.

Its so real... 

I mean its the sign of happiness that really came out from my heart!

Does it look sweet ?

My friends were all comment about it,

: " OHhhh my, you smile so sweet! "

When they captured that photo for me.

Because ... he was there in my mind and my heart for every moment.

My salad

Wanna diet so so much!

As i really gain weight on this recently...

So sad about that.

So trying to eat lesser and skip my dinner.

Vegetables is the best choice when meal time (:

Actually i miss my long hair this recently,

may be when i looked back the old photo that i took last time.

Thus, i must very hardworking to wash my hair 

&

treatment on it!

Reason being: I wan my long hair back!

Hehehehe

I want the lady look back,

i mean the sweet lady look...

Probably will more amaze my B i guess....

Hehehehe

I love him

I really love him

I mean i super duper wooper love him 

New chapter

This is the latest me

Brand new Christine Ooi

With her short red hair & new life

She was now in a relationship with someone that she love!

The feeling was so great.

Being loved by someone that really love her & she love.

The guy n her started like a strike lighting

Which sound that everything was moved with a speed..

N yet there was sure some problems that they will faced,

but she willing to take those challenges and 

she told herself to be brave n strong enough to overcome it.

Reason being: She love him .

It's just that simple... as simple as ABC.

Test or exams will be given by god from time to time, 

she remember her father told her before....

" If you love him, please bear with everything, learnt to accept and 

stay strong no matter how, true love need to be proved

and it take times to be proved too... "

He gave her ... necklace that represent true love,

she knew that he was so into to her,

and she was also serious with him.

She actually wanna take this opportunity to tell him that,

she wanna grab his hand tightly and together

to solve problem by problem that they will face.

Is this good enough for you to be a answer that i wanna be with you so much??

B I love you .

I love you as i love my life, my family so much !

Will update more..

As i have a lot of photo wanna share.

Since that i had disappear for about one month,

i feel so guilty and sorry for my readers!

I'm happy with what i had now!

i appreciate it so much.

Thanks god.

[ STAY TURNED ]

Please bear with me....

(:

- love -

No C,M,Y but left K

Randomly...

This is recent me.

I wish to be slimmer, to be sexier and even hotter.

What a bad wish?..

Yea

I always so naive.

My character does not really go appropriate with my outlook.

Everyone told me that when first time saw me,

will thought that i'm a soft person,

quiet and even polite.

But when the days go by, eventually,..

they'll realize that's not the truth anymore,

as i'm .... hahaha!

I'm not that tame!

I strongly aren't being pampered (:

After some crazy photo-snapping,

Imma getting better (;

My life was simple,and my wish were simple too!

But just... i have lotsss of wish that i wish ,

which seem like not simple at all!

Lol

Alright,

no matter how, life still keep move on.

I'll put a big smile on my face as what i had promise to myself before.

I love my life and i appreciate it.

Thanks god for being with me all the while!

(:

我决定了

很多人告诉我 女人是狠心的动物

当她们不要了 就会很绝情的

我也是女人 我也会绝情？

我不懂我是否算绝情

但我决定了 决定离开了

我告诉过他 我会离开

我会用种种方法 确定我真的离开了

我搬离了我原来一直住的家

刚好也是个机缘

因为本来就只是住到这个月尾

新的住宿其实距离现在的地方一段距离

我把所有以前的信息全都删除了

我把唯一他对我好的一切都没留下了

希望我能好好加油

毕竟放下和离开其实需要很大的勇气

再加上没有实际的分手场合

让人很难跨那一步

我其实一直都知道

他不是那么寒心的人

但是 我希望之后换他来唤醒我

如果以后还有缘的话

但这一次就已一个没有结束的结束来了断

我们之间的一切

怎样的爱情最刻骨？

没有结果 没有一定定义

的爱情最刻骨 最美丽

我们之间算是吧

相爱但却不能走下去

见到对方时目光焦点都会在对方身上移动

眼神的交错会让俩人挫愣一会

若隐若现的暧昧 的关心

真叫人摸不着头脑

我们真的就这样吧

你对着我都累了

是我的失败让你感到累了

是我的执著让自己一次比一次更受伤

所以你放心

我这一次知道痛字怎么写了

我终于知道自己是真的爱你

而不是因为寂寞或者依赖

Late Midnight

10.8.10

Woops

Its kinda late now, i mean very very late.

Bt i still here to blog as i just got a chance to

upload my photo.

So many photo was not been arranged yet.

Was in a mess...

* headache

Its ok,

Let just blog a simple one,

let you all know bout my life n look (:

This was current me,

so so so current...

HAHA

I love myself.

I would not let myself feel the pain anymore.

Will have lots of activities, party and mayb dinner.

Although actually i'm not that into it,

but for now... i mean temporarily,

i need to use it.

If not i'll have a lot of thoughts when i come to emptyness.

I dont want that.

I want being fulled and filled.

Yea, my laopo was right.

I'll get through this time no matter how.

Thanks laopo, love you!

Ohs shit!!!

I just left 5 hours only...

God ... 24 hours was not enough for me =(

Picture was took in Station One

Was learning some new stuff from my friend

She was a great one!

Teechee ;D

Stay turned; will be right back !

Muackxxx

L o V e .

Hurts

You hurt me so much this time.

My heart was bleeding.

My soul was so weak.

My brain was blank.

My body was break into pieces.

I hate you this time.

Hate you be so cool-blooded.

I swear this time was the last time.

DAMN!

I get enough of it.

I admit i'm the loser in this game.

I wanna quit and no for the next time.

I'll try my very very best fucking leaving you!

The words that you said keep playing in my head.

Those words took tones of my tears.

Seriously, i wanna punch you so much!

Fuck you!

I'll get my revenge one day.

Ur loss not mine.

Pray *ing . Miss*ing

Praying for tomorrow , hope there will not be a very big issue
Praying for my beloved daddy , hope he'll recover soon
Praying for my love one , hope he won and get the prize
* but he din even call me so mean that....???
Praying i'll be more cautions and reduce those silly mistakes
Praying my day after tomorrow will be more beautiful
Praying i'll gonna step forwards without be afraid
Praying i'll gain back my luck and confidence

I'll gone through,
I'll be alright.
Everything will be fine.

Dont give too much pressure, there's nothing to be worry.

C H E E R S
(:

I miss my parents,

I miss my daddy and mum,

I'm currently waiting the day to be home.

Still countdown...

Just now just finish talked with my lovely dad,

he was right.

He was the only one who was really understand me,

he was irresplaceble.

Mum was waiting the day i'll be back too.

She promise to cook my favourites's.

Staying outside alone , apart from family ...

is not a nice feeling to have.

As home was the best place for us (:

You know why?

Home Sweet Home !!!

My Feeling

Let's blog about my recent feeling...

I mean the emotions.

Listening to Mariah Carey - I Still Believe

while blogging this post.

This song was a song that full with hope.

Its was the best to decribe my feeling.

I did told myself and even my close friend that i wanna let go him,

and forget everything to ensure that i can have a new life.

Restart everything and do not let myself get hurts again.

But its doesnt works at all...

As in my mind there are always a hope for me.

I do always hope that there will be someday for me & him

to be in love and together again.

I knew i should not have that thought anymore,

but ... i still feel like ... he was still there for me.

He was still care about me.

May be he was just too busy,

and that is not the reason to let me leave him away.

Unless he really does not like me anymore,

then only i'll move away.

I would say,

I'll let time to proove everything.

Whether we really can be again or not,

that will be an answer after ... then.

So, let moving forward together with time,

wisely use our time and manage it well.

I'll not waste it anymore as i really found out that time flies.

I wanna grab it tight and do things effectively.

I wanna proove that how much i love and i care about him,

i wanna proove that how much i can be improved by this few months,

i wanna proove that i can manage well my career and him at the same time.,.

There are still lots that i wanna proove..

But the only and one was still go back to.... my love towards him.

I would say,

there nothing to be doubt for it.

I'm running after you,

chasing you behind and yelling loud that

" I love you baby and i just need you...... "

I miss you.

Honestly, i really miss you.

Weeks for us does not seen each other

and days for us does not contact each other ...

There are few time,

i grab up my phone tight but just do not brave enough

to give you a call to listen to ur voice.

I was really contracdiction.

Gosh!

A R G H

whenever when i'm alone,

my life was like empty...

when its empty.......

the feeling of missing you was really so strong !

i miss you like hell !

i wish that you're here with me...

Baby

why do i love you so much ?

Go for passionate, and i still believe

Born to be in that way.

I was a person full with passionate,

passion with everything that in my soul.

Talk about fashion

Read about magazine

Care about family,the love one and even friends

Think about future

Work with full heart to get something in return.

Thus,

i have one breakable heart.

I mean it's easily breakable...

Easily to be soft hearted eventhought

 i swear that i'll not compromise anymore

Its really make me feel so contradiction

I knew this was me

It's was my character

Sometime,

i do ask myself for not to be that passionate anymore.

But yet i'm born to.

I cant really fling off that part of me.

I'm easily trapt in love

Whenever i love someone

then i'll easily get emotions,

the mixed feeling that could not be expressed by words.

I ... still believe.

Someday you and me,

will be in love again.

The feeling in between love or not

its killing me,

i'll get insane after a while with this kind situation.

I choose the way,

i'm not regret with it.

Its really wonderful but yet

that was terrible consequences that i need to face .....

That's always one question that i want to ask,

will there be the second chance for us to be together

and love by you again?

The feeling that you gave was so strong whenever

you look into my eyes,

i knew that's the true feeling that you aint really control it for,..

I get that message,

its really touch my soul.

But did you realize for that?

You always give me thousand and shit reasons

that just hope that i'll stay away from you...

Its really hurt.

Its hurt when you spoke in that way...

Althought you're not mean to

I always hoping there was one day,

we'll meet again, talk again, everything was like restart again...

I still believe ...

I still have a dream...

Good Luck & All The best

A short post
A simple post
Just to show that how much i care...

All the best & good luck
Today was the day for him
An important day as it was the competition day
He has been so busy for the past 2 months
Busy for the preparation and everything

I hope he get the prize and the name
I hope he win
I hope everything he hope, he would achieve

God bless, bless him always And take care of him too.

It was Sunday

Hey

The picture was took on sunday.

It was a dull one for me.

Nothing much special,

except early morning i had ' dim sum ' as my breakfast...

Hehe

It has been ages that i always skip my breakfast on the lovely sunday

I'm kinda exicted and not patient enough to wait for the day,

when my buddy told me that they gonna come find me in pg...

And i promise will leave one day for them...

As last,

the feeling was exactly the same like the rain after the day..

But ,

still a day for me.

I hope the next or the coming one will be more cokourfull!

Hoping for the coming Sunday,

where to go??

Maybe go and explore something new with my fren or buddy again!

Hehe

Any suggestion?

Any special and nice food to intro?

Tell me, tell me ... Tell me more!

As i guess i still not yet discover the lovely pg island yet

(:

Cheers!

Tcare and have a nice dream tonight,

- End -

A late post

Picture captured on 27 April 2010

My Birthday

Due to wireless connection down in my house,

so until now only i have a chance to post it...

Well, my minds was full with the words that i wanna share with.

Hmm... those people in that picture were all my buddy.

Will the coming days still the same?

Actly i miss those days...

I'm someone that full with passion and love,

that's my spirits ...

I born to.

Due to that strong caring feeling,

i easily get strike up by something that i did not expected.

Actly, i did not angry or mad anymore.

Bt i jus dunno how to face them.

I scare i get hurt again...

I scare i'll be let down by them again...

The feeling of escaping make me refuse to get closer with them.

Give me sometime,

I'll be better after a while.

Take care my bro.

I knew you'll view it,

thanks for supporting my blog,

I'm glad to know that.

If i'm ready,

i'll let you know when the apologise dinner can be threated.

Cheers!

Curse

♥

She will chase you around for a while ;

But when there's going to be a day

when she's gonna stop running incircles around you.

She going to get over you

and that very moment you're going to wish you had let her catch you.

AND

I promise someday you'll regret lossing me......

You'll think back and said

: " Damn... that girl really did love me!"

Time flies

Time passes so fast,

i mean damn fast!

It's almost one year...

I mean between me & him.

But the most happy moment was still in my head.

Whenever i think back or have a look,

i'll smile without my notice.

I'm happy at that time,

i mean i'm really happy.

Everything he said and did,

was still there for me to rmb for the entire of my life time.

* sound like a stupid girl stupid girl still holding tight and hope on he could turn back??

   I dont know .... =.=

I get a lot of chances to eat whatever i want.

Honestly, being pampered by a chef was really sweet!

Hahahaha

That was a sample one that he did just to try out the taste,

but i was really lucky that i get to eat first before him...

How nice would it be right?

Hehehe

   Work as a waitress in the restaurant and i was glad to know them.

The feeling was so warm like a family.

They taught and they guided as well!

I miss that time so much......

I knew i would not have a chance to look back or even go back anymore,

but please just allow me to share those memory.

It was so hard to explain by words,

i was really really happy for that period.

We both will see each other everyday, speak to each other everyday...

At first, was just like a buddy...

But yet it turn up as a admire and eventually become someone only that i need.

I knew i rely on him too much...

Well, now ... things change.

Those memory was like a dream i guess...

He was awake from it? I don't know and i wouldn't want to know anymore.

But i still miss him...... as i love him deep before.

Many people are telling me, how stupid or idiot that i'm,

Love quotes always mention about, only fool will trust in love either love or true love,

so i just admit it, i'm a damn fool !

Anyhow, i feel better when i share out.

Sharing is caring isn't it??

If you guys care about me, please let me know,

at least i'm not alone ......

Cheers!

- End -

Dragon-i

Virgin !!!

Haha i mean the first time trying in this famous restaurant.

I dont have a chance to visit this restaurant until only yesterday...

Thanks to my two bro, brotherhood!

Haha

The setting, quite special thought.

" Bing ma yong "

I look kinda tired right?

* Maybe caus of tired to talk with them, hahaha

Sia sui look ... Haha

Its blur , sorry.

Was waiting the food, and i'm too free so ...

Again ....

Until my food was there in front of me!

Haha

Was so delight... I ordered spicy & sour ramen

Its still hot .... Can you see and feel it??

Hahaha

" Xiao long pao "

Must eat item !

Wooooo ...

" Ma po guo fan "

My ramen

After finish our lovely dinner,

went for movie.

Twilight saga - ESCLIPE

Edward Cullen was damn perfect!

How nice if he is a real one??

I'll chase after him no matter how tough would it be..

Sound like being a slut?

Hahahaha

I guess so.

If being a slut can get a guy like him,

why not?

Didnt hav a try , then who knows?...

* chunckle